Stuck.

I am stuck.

Stuck at 144 pounds.

The scale hasn't budged for weeks. 

I take that back, it budges from 143-145, but mostly stays at 144. 

I didn't make my 4 week goal weight. 

I am really bummed about that.

But I honestly have no one to blame but myself.

I haven't done any cross training for a month. I have only been running. 

When I weighed myself this morning and saw no improvement, I got really mad. 

 Mad that I haven't been upping my game.  

Mad that I completely binged on wednesday.

 Mad that I let a number on a scale effect my mood so greatly.  

Mad that I didn't try harder. 

I could come up with a million and one excuses of why the scale hasn't moved, but ultimately it's been my choice to stop cross training and eating unhealthy things here and there. 

 I thought since I was running more miles that it would make up for itself. Well, that's really not the case.  Every single time I have stopped doing weight training the scale never moves.  And it's not that I don't like weight training, I actually kind of enjoy doing it since my husband always does it with me, it's just I always make the excuse that I ran hard and that should be plenty.  

So weight training is starting back up again today.  I really need to be consistent about it, just like I am consistent with my runs.  I kind of feel obligated to do my runs since I am training for a 10k, so it pushes me to do my running every single week.  I however, don't feel obligated to weight/cross train. Even though I have read countless articles about how it improves your running when you do those things.  I just need to make it a priority.  

Onto happier news-

I did achieve my other two goals that I set for 4 weeks.  I even killed one of my 10 week goals. So I should really be happy about what I have accomplished and not be so negative about what I didn't accomplish.  

This little firecracker really made my morning when I went into her room this morning and she was standing at her crib and saying "up." That's the first time she's ever said it before, so it really made my morning much brighter! 

*I am doing my full weigh-in and measurements at my 10 week stat update.  That will probably be on September 1st.  So I have about a month to get my butt into gear and really step up my game and lose those few extra pounds I want to lose. 

Week 10 Stats

I was really dreading my week 10 stats.  I knew I wouldn't see as much improvement that I saw from week 1-6.  And mentally it was just eating at me.  I have a certain mentality when it comes to certain things.  Once I start something I want to get it done ASAP.  I want it done and I want to see the end result.  

Well with this journey I'm taking it is an extremely slow process.  Yes, I could speed it up and lower my calories even more and practically starve to death, but that's not going to happen.  For one, if I did that my body would go into starvation mode and start to store fat.  Secondly, I already feel like I am at a pretty low calorie intake and I really can't go any lower.  

So this morning marked 10 weeks for me and I was dreading weighing myself in.  Why?  Because I knew I gained 1 pound back when I got back from Chicago.  So I was really concerned that my 10 week stats would totally suck.  Well, this morning I was pleasantly surprised that I am now down to 146 pounds.   Bringing my total weight loss to date at 13 pounds.  Which means I have lost weight at a steady pace.  Which is really good news.  From everything that I have read, It's healthier for you to only lose 1-2 pounds a week and you have a greater chance at keeping the weight off when you do it this way.

My biggest improvement from week 6-10 was in my thighs and arms.  

Moving Forward:

I have to keep reminding myself to look at the big picture.  I have to realize that it takes time.  I also am beginning to get into the stages of trying to tone rather than lose.  I still want to lose about 10 more pounds.  But I know it's going to be extremely hard.  I have to measure my success by how I feel, how my clothes are fitting me, and how I look in the mirror.  I will definitely keep weighing myself, but weight isn't the whole picture.

Next week I run in my first race.  I am achieving this goal way sooner than I thought I would.  I am really excited but still kind of nervous! This week I have been stepping up my running game and been training on the treadmill with inclines.  It totally kicks my butt.  

Next weigh in will be in 4 weeks. 

Week 6 Stats

It's been six weeks since I've started exercising and eating healthy.  I try and stay away from the word diet, because honestly I feel like I'm not on a diet that I will do for a few weeks or even months.  I am really trying to change the way I live my life.  I want to have a more active lifestyle.  I want to eat more healthy foods on a regular basis.  I also am not going to cut out the foods I love either.   I have a sweet tooth and I enjoy baking.  I will never prohibit myself from enjoying those things, because then it would feel like a diet and let's be honest dieting is not a long term thing for me.  

So here they are: 

My Measurements:

As you can see I have already seen a ton of improvement.  I'm really glad I recorded my measurements because it's really fulfilling to know that you lost so many inches! Although, if I were to measure again I would follow this diagram for measuring that I found on Pinterest.

I know I have lost a ton of inches in my legs, but not in the areas I have measured.  I have a pair of workout capris that litterally are hanging on me and are so baggy on my legs and butt now and they were tight before.  But the areas that I measured for my legs have seen little change.

Anyways, I can't believe the difference in my body and I have only done this for 6 weeks.  I can honestly say I haven't been this thin since before I got pregnant with my first child.  I also feel like I have a lot more energy throughout the day.  I am going to take my measurements again when I reach the 10 week mark.