Stuck.

I am stuck.

Stuck at 144 pounds.

The scale hasn't budged for weeks. 

I take that back, it budges from 143-145, but mostly stays at 144. 

I didn't make my 4 week goal weight. 

I am really bummed about that.

But I honestly have no one to blame but myself.

I haven't done any cross training for a month. I have only been running. 

When I weighed myself this morning and saw no improvement, I got really mad. 

 Mad that I haven't been upping my game.  

Mad that I completely binged on wednesday.

 Mad that I let a number on a scale effect my mood so greatly.  

Mad that I didn't try harder. 

I could come up with a million and one excuses of why the scale hasn't moved, but ultimately it's been my choice to stop cross training and eating unhealthy things here and there. 

 I thought since I was running more miles that it would make up for itself. Well, that's really not the case.  Every single time I have stopped doing weight training the scale never moves.  And it's not that I don't like weight training, I actually kind of enjoy doing it since my husband always does it with me, it's just I always make the excuse that I ran hard and that should be plenty.  

So weight training is starting back up again today.  I really need to be consistent about it, just like I am consistent with my runs.  I kind of feel obligated to do my runs since I am training for a 10k, so it pushes me to do my running every single week.  I however, don't feel obligated to weight/cross train. Even though I have read countless articles about how it improves your running when you do those things.  I just need to make it a priority.  

Onto happier news-

I did achieve my other two goals that I set for 4 weeks.  I even killed one of my 10 week goals. So I should really be happy about what I have accomplished and not be so negative about what I didn't accomplish.  

This little firecracker really made my morning when I went into her room this morning and she was standing at her crib and saying "up." That's the first time she's ever said it before, so it really made my morning much brighter! 

*I am doing my full weigh-in and measurements at my 10 week stat update.  That will probably be on September 1st.  So I have about a month to get my butt into gear and really step up my game and lose those few extra pounds I want to lose.